Why, Why, Why

I don’t know what to say
I’m on my shaking knees, my eyes are closed
All of me is focused on the air in my mouth
Breathe in, breathe out

Why did I ever think that I could do this
Why did I take the road that brought me here
Why did I let you go
Will I be able to keep you safe in the back of my mind

Ooh. Where have we to go
I’ve never been brave enough to go climbing trees
I’m walking carefully now that we’re on fragile ground
We come, we go

No, I’m reaching for you now
I am calling for you again
I’m reaching

-Zach

Good Inside Me Live

There is no melody to this one
No fancy rhyme to fit the lines
Or words to fill the gaps
It’s just me, in a no nonsense, honest way
Finally

What’s taken so long to come around
Is only due to my stubbornness, my selfishness
My desire to live for me
Now everything within me wants to slay
Everything within me
And never again let it grow
So could you hold me back, this evil part of me
And only let the good inside me live
Only let the good inside me live

The song she sang through her eyes
It made me hate the way we all are
We steal visibility, warmth, and attention
But still, we starve for more
And just choke the others out

Can someone tell me who I really am
Does anybody know me and would anybody want to
Give me something more to hear than the sound of a falling tear
Upon this page

I won’t say that I don’t cry
Just like the girl that sang her song through her eyes
I could have seen her heart even if I were blind that night
Sweetheart, keep your heart out, it’s ok
I’ll be here beside you, I won’t let it fall

She sang:

There’s not a melody to this one
No fancy rhyme to fit the lines
Or words to fill in all the gaps
It’s just me, in an honest, no nonsense kind of way
Finally

What’s taken so long to come around
Is only due to my stubbornness, my selfishness
My desire to live for me
Now everything within me wants to slay
Everything within me
And never again let it grow
So could you hold me back, this evil part of me
And only let the good inside me live
Only let the good inside me live

-Zach

From My Knees

Please, please, will you come back home
Please, I need to see your face just one more time
I know it’s hard, but we’ll keep holding on to each other
And take this world one step at a time, side by side

I know I’ve had a hard time without you
I admit that I have teared up at the thought
Of you staying where you are
Staying where you are so far away

I know I’ve laid in bed with open eyes
Listening to my breathing, I want to hear you breathing
And if you come back home
Do you think that you could stay

Could you never again go so far away

I thought I’d have a hard time without you
I was right to think that very hardest thing
Would be seeing pictures of your eyes
Pictures of your tender eyes

It’s just so hard to look away from you

I never thought I’d say this, I never thought I’d have to
I’d never want to do this to you
I never thought I’d say this, I never thought I’d have to
I wouldn’t want to leave you

But I’m scared of you coming back
I’m scared of those tender eyes
I’m so scared of you coming back

I’m scared that your fragile heart will be torn
And I’m scared that I’d leave, I’m so scared that I would be
A man who tears you more
I know I wouldn’t want to, but you know me

So I’m sorry that I’m singing from my knees

Please, please, will you come back home
Please, I need to see your face just one more time
I know it’s hard, but we’ll keep holding on to each other
And take this world one step at a time, side by side

-Zach

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Shape or Whisper

I’ve already tried this alone, hello
But I don’t think I’ve ever wanted to
Still, I find myself alone in a bed far from home
And I miss her, I miss her tonight

Would it be enough to save from this pain
To know her shape
Or the words she would whisper softly into my ear

Somewhere she is out there, is she answering my prayers
Living her life for me without knowing I am here
I just want her to know that I love her
I want her to know that I’m waiting
And I’m praying for all that you are
From the inside of your heart to your fingertips

It would never be enough to save me from this pain
To know your shape
I need the words you would whisper softly into my ear

I want to be praying for all that you are
From the inside of your heart to your fingertips

-Zach

On The Subway

Faces pass on the subway
Winding tunnels at almost blinding speeds
Eyes meet and then look away
Familiarity isn’t what we need

Empty chair, empty bench, empty handrail
All quite comfortably next to me
At the time, I thought you might have chosen the one
That would allow you to run away suddenly

Never show it to the strangers
The fact that we’ve got history
Never give it to the beggars
And say it’s the same old story
Can’t we just lock our eyes and agree
That I just wasn’t right for you
And you weren’t just right for me

Faces pass on the subway
About fifty more each day
And out of all of these people
You’re still the one, the only one
That I’d ever admit I’d want to see

Empty chair, empty bench, empty handrail
All quite comfortably next to me
And at the time, if you’d have asked, I’d admit
That I saved them all for you
I’m saving them all just for you

Close your eyes, close your eyes, I’m not listening
Say my name, say my name, it means everything

Faces pass on the subway
Our eyes meet and then look away…

-Zach